Tuesday, October 30, 2007

all alone in the house of Ho

so im not at home today, which is a surprise even for me. haha slept over here at jen's last night to help decorate the house for Halloween (which we big "kids" call: night of drinking and happy times!), and they left early today to go to their angkong's cemetery (which our side of the family did yesterday)

it was so nice seeing most of my cousins yesterdat, and to be able to catch up with what was going on in our lives. had an especially long talk with brian(who i always talk to online but rarely face to face) and tin about what's happened since new year (when we were last drunk. hahaha!) apparently May 1 is a very significant day for us. hahahahaha

the nice thing about being with your cousins is that you know that no matter what you do, they will always take your side (except when you war against another one of your own, of course. haha). also, because we all grew up around each other (i practically did not have any other friends growing up because there were so many of us that i did not have time to squeeze in other kids), we all know each other a smidge better than other people, so we don't get wary about talking about weird things, or about confronting them with things that you might not say to other people directly. it's really quite nice that we've all managed to stay bonded over the years, despite the fact that most of us only see each other for special occassions, and never talk in the months between new year and september (my lola and dad's birthday).

anyway, this is getting really long. so au revoir for now :D

Friday, October 26, 2007

grey's anatomy makes me cry like crazy. i don't know why. and now, private practice makes me cry too.

i am such a sap!!!!! guh.

anyhow, my colds are back with a vengeance. if i still have them tomorrow, i will totally ask to have LOTS of medicine. and for someone to sedate me so i don't sneeze much. because my head hurts. it hurts very very very much. it sucks.

happy boitday to my dearest friend nikki (although she doesn't read this)!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D

Friday, October 19, 2007

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

so i went to Dawn Watch today. woke up at 5 to get to church at 6 and just prayed with everyone. im thinking of making it into a regular habit, because there is just something so.. profound, i guess, about people waking up in the early morning for fellowship.

going to dawn watch made me think REALLY hard about my situation though. i still don't know what i want to do with the rest of my life, not really. i keep thinking about options i can go into but it all boils down to one simple fact: im scared of doing anything, because im afraid to take the risk. hay.

life is too short to be constantly scared of leaping off the damn ledge. it's too full of what if's that will continue to haunt me.

talking to my tita made me remember something that i've wanted to do for a long time. she's been thinking of selling her furniture on the internet but is a bit scared to do it as well, and i told her i would help her with it. and that made the rusted wheels of my brain start working. what if..?

what if indeed?

more on this when i figure out what to do with my life. for now, i will prepare to go to 168 with my lola tomorrow.

Monday, October 1, 2007

Iran so far

truly precious. hahahahahahaha watch clip til end for special guest stars :D hahahaha