Thursday, December 3, 2009

on a lazy wednesday

it's been a really good day. i haven't spent this much time at home in a while now, so i'm glad i got the chance to just bum around for a day, although i don't like the circumstances in which this opportunity came about.

it was sort of a mababaw/malalim day. i got to pig out, get my hair did (mom finally got the chance to glop henna all over my hair), and sleep all day, but i also got to think a little bit about my options in life. i know i've been saying it a lot but i think it needs to be said again: do i really want to be stuck in this kind of job forever? there are a lot of pros to being where i am, but also a lot of reasons why i should leave, and as always, i'm torn.

on a very mababaw side, i went to Pampanga on a food trip last weekend and came home about a zillion pounds heavier but a lot happier and also starbucks planner-laden :D it is good to be home though :)

spent about half my salary on clothes. God help me, i'm starting to buy clothes and it's addicting.

Friday, October 24, 2008

i am officially jealous.

starting next month, Mel will be our cameraman.

and i wanna kill myself. i wanna go back to going on coverages and not be stuck in the office effin GROUNDED. what am i, 5?

Sunday, October 19, 2008

about ten blog entries crammed into one

i'm zeriously scared. i think i broke our office's DVCam. i inserted a tape in it yesterday to rewind so i could shotlist. and then horror of horrors, it begins to go on the fritz. as in, the friggin tape won't get ejected. Rely says it might be cuz the tape inside snapped, the guy manning the Custodian office at ABS said it might be cuz the office is cold and the camera might have gotten moist inside, and the guys at maintenance apparently are stupid and don't know anything (literally they said they didn't know what to do). WHAT SHOULD I DO???
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in other news, Nix, Adi and Brian just left for CamSur, the lucky bastards. i hope they bring me back some goodies. otherwise i'll eat their heads off.
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i know i'm kinda on a lag with the latest music, but i'd just like to share that i am totally in love with a song by The Script called The Man Who Can't Be Moved. it's just so sad and about a guy who won't move from a street corner until the girl he's in love with comes back for him when she decides she loves him after all. okay, kind of creepy the way i relay it, but the sentiment is so touching and the song gives me those "aaaw" feelings. :D i've been listening to it nonstop since Friday :D
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i also got my hair cut today. Jamie is so gonna kill me because she's been away on all these coverages for EC, and hasn't had time to get a haircut when she really wants to, and i was... well it wasn't in my plans to get a haircut. i wanted to get my eyebrows waxed though but i still haven't. but whee! it's a lot shorter now, like a year's worth of hair was cut (well, maybe half a year's) and it's sort of layered now. :) but i like it and it's got the nikki seal of approval so i'm doubly proud that i got it cut. haha now to get my 'brows waxed.
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what's a good planner to get for next year? i'm torn between the new belle de jour and a starbucks one. or i could get a generic loser one straight from natio and "glam it up" (har as if i had the time or the strength). or ooh, one of those arty-farty ones you can get from Fully Booked. hmm...
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i'm looking back at the year that is about to end, and... i guess what i'd really like to say is that a lot has changed. not to be miss ignorant or petty or anything, but man has the world changed, and as citizens of the world, i see everyone around me changing as well. not to say that i never thought change was possible, but the magnitude of change in my life and in the other lives i see as well is really big, sometimes great, sometimes not so. para bang andami nating lahat na napgdaanan. i don't know exactly how to describe what i'm thinking though so if it's vague... well, i think i'll just leave it for until my end of the year blog special. :)

i'm done blogging for the night/week/month/year. :D so good night!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

hooray for happy thoughts!

I've been feeling awfully drained lately. it seems like everywhere i turn, there is an opportunity for a fresh set of complaints, and grabe, i so do not want to become negative. i've been down that road before and it's not pretty. so instead of clinging on to negative thoughts, today i shall think happy thoughts! focus on the positive, as they say.

  • like the fact that i already have half the money i need for the digicam saved up (more than what i originally projected over the course of 3 paydays) so hopefully talaga by November i get to buy it na from TP in time for Christmas!!
  • or the fact that after that, i have resolved to start saving up for a laptop, just so i don't keep whining about how i don't have one
  • i was able to coordinate all of the EC coverages today! :D
  • i found a more efficient way to transcribe and as soon as i get a laptop (hopefully by December, my very own Christmas gift to myself), i shall definitely be spending more time in the newsroom :D
  • that allowance thing anne and i have resolved to keep ourselves on definitely works! sure i deviate now and again, but i am really able to save now and i'm so happy! :D
  • i was able to download a boatload of new songs over the weekend and am now in the process of organizing my iPod into little playlists para fun!
there are of course things that are cause for worry, but hey focusing on the positive will definitely help me through it (i hope!)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

home on a Saturday! :D

i am so glad i got to spend my whole day at home just being a total slob. sure i should have cleaned my room a bit (a lot) but for my first saturday at home in a really long time (and i think my last one in for a really long time afterward), i just wanted to CHILL and be... well, a slob. hahaha

although inasmuch as i loved being at home, i kinda miss the office. please don't bonk me in the head for that. haha! i guess i just miss the not needing to do anything at all for a whole day. but, heh whatever i still lurve being at home. cuz next saturday we'll be swamped with work. grar.

i was able to download a LOT of music today and my basic task for the day was just to reorganize my crazy full iPod. i had to delete quite a few songs to make room for the new ones, and it sorta breaks my heart sometimes, because it's getting to a point where i actually LIKE all the songs in my iPod as opposed to before where i just sorta cram everything in there because there's too much space to fill. now, i have a mental battle in my head over all the songs. like: "do you really listen to this song? how many times have you skipped over it? yeah you listen to that song when you're (insert mood here) but when was the last time you LISTENED to it?" yeah, i was that sort of bored.

i also added a new playlist, called covers+oldies where i put all the music that were covers or old songs, and 82 out of my 676 songs fits into that category. well,mostly cuz i got acquainted with Boyce Avenue a couple of months back and i decided to download some of their stuff today. i also got some songs from the Gap Favorite Songs album (i super recommend John Legend's 'Hello, It's Me' and Jason Mraz's 'One Love')

i also erased my dance playlist because it hasn't been updated in a while. i like to do that, actually. delete my playlists and start over again. it gives me "something to do". hahahaha but now i have an empty playlist. ah well.

i really should make a commuting playlist though. hehe and a while-you're-bored-at-the-office one.

i have recently opened a Plurk account, broadening my web obsession by one more site. here's hoping i still get some sort of work done. hahaha

so now i'm rambling, so i'm off to bed. good night! :D

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

and the whole point kids, is there is no point

i am old.

i now freely admit that. heck, i shall embrace the fact that at 23, i am considered old. decrepit, shall we say (i kid, of course). at parties, i am the one griping on and on about work and am the one being constantly asked about work.

heck, even tin's boyfriend thought i was the eldest based solely on the fact that by the last clumtards reunion/drink night, i was the only one with a job. (but hey achi denise now has a job too, which means she is older than i am. forever. mwahahaha)

i.am.old.

this fact driven home on Sept21, where i lament at my lola and dad's birthday party about the fact that everyone has a sembreak, and i DO NOT. so while they are planning on where they will go for sembreak, i go and say: "so kids (!!!), lubus-lubusin nyo na ang mga bakasyon nyo dahil pag-nagtrabaho na kayo wala na yan lahat. ever."

this. line. came. from. me. from out of nowhere. and of course every college-aged person there laugh their asses off coz the line came from me, ms.-i-bummed-for-ten-months-coz-i-was-too-lazy-to-look-for-a-real-job.

i think i need to bum again. just so we have our priorities straight, which is luj>family>work. HAHAHAHAHAHA

i loooved hangin out with my college friends cuz the last time i hung out with any of them was about 6 or 5 months ago (i don't remember when sar and i hung out last but she maintains it was later than march so, ok) we got together cuz of the bonfire and it was pretty fun! i spend all this time at work with my officemates, and by now i'm sure the people who know me a tad better to call me friend rather than acquaintance would know that i have a tendency to "forget" old friends when moving into "new" worlds. anyway, so i spend all my time with them, and my whole world now is the office (and of course the people i can't "forget", my family) and wala lang it was so nice to catch up with all my old friends. i got to meet so many of the ones i've amassed over the years,and you know, nostalgia kicks in.

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and i present to you, my friends, yet another reason why i am old. because when you are old, nostalgia kicks in. when you are young you do not lament over time passed. when you are old, you huddle up in a corner with friends and go: where has the time gone? when i saw you last (insert witty remark/lament/insult/compliment here). and then you go around telling people I MISS YOU GUYS! we should do this more often and hug everyone like you haven't seen them for ten years and they (or you) are about to die.

and yet there are still just some things that click, y'know? like the fact that after 1 1/2 years since college, everyone is different and yet still the same. the same old jokes revisited, the same old people to tsismis about... but with new material, of course. it's comforting to know i still have friends outside of work, even though Lord only knows why i have friends, period on account of i'm such a b-word.

okay, time for this old lady to check herself into bed. g'night now ;-)

Monday, September 29, 2008

i don't mean to gripe on and on but.. actually i do.

it's just that i'm so sick of you. sure we get along most of the time, but when you treat me like an infant i just want to strangle you until i don't have to worry about hearing from you ever again.

if i could resign just so i don't have to work with you, believe me i really would, it's just it's really bad timing right now. ugh.