Monday, September 24, 2007

blast from the past (ma'am chona rocks)

i got a letter from 2004 lu jean last friday. i didn't think much of it (and i thought it was from ICAn senior luj) so i "shelved" it (meaning i tossed it in my study table with nary a thought). until today, because JP got a letter from his 2004 self too. and apparently, freshman luj wrote this. hahahaha

it goes something like this:

March 19, 2004
dear me,
     hmm... where do i begin? today marks the last day of this school year & i'm sort of excited (duh... it's the last official school day, even though there are finals next week) As you know, this is the culmination of one hellish week & i'm still trying to get over yesterday's... uhm... thing. anyway, i hope we're still the same old us when you read this again. i hope that life will finally be nicer to us. And also, i hope you'll never forget what's happened this year, because everything that's happened this year is monumental. hehehe... Aryt, have to go. I'm not making sense anymore. still sleepy eh. (smiley) tc & God bless!

Luj (smiley)
P.S. Sana nasa mabuting kalagayan ka pa (smiley) At sana pinapansin ka pa rin ni... (smiley)

ok,i do not remember much of what happened. but i DO remember who ...(smiley) is. hahahahahaha. another letter follows directly after this:

hey luj!!
    grabe... mamimiss kita! wala na akong maingay na seatmate na parati kong kausap! hahaha! i had a lot of fun being your seatmate. sana friends pa tayo after.


ok. so far this is what i remember from 2004:
  • i entered ateneo
  • joined enta. had a blast. found a real-life superfriend
  • hell week.... baka dahil sa bahay-bahayan 'to.
  • yesterday's thing-still doesn't ring a bell.
for a talkative person, i certainly didn't say much, did i? anyway, to 2004 luj (who's still somewhere inside me, prolly wondering what the hell happened), here is what happened to our life:
  • we graduated!
  • left enta. cried a lot. broke it off with real-life superfriend who turned out to be real-life bitch/crap friend.
  • hell year. dahil sa enta. at thesis
  • hindi ka na pinapansin ni... (smiley). pero naging friends kayo. at some point. maski di kayo naguusap face-to-face. plano mong batiin sya sa birthday nya.
  • life is, indeed, nicer :)
you are now great friends with a bunch of people who are the best. ever. they helped you out during thesis by acting as support system, rant pillow, shoulder-to-cry-on, drink buddies, test audience.. etc. you have a great relationship with your cousins, and.. di na kayo friends ni justin. hahahahahaha

r01 was the best. i could not have asked for a better english block, actually. kris, karen, k and i are still friends(wow puro k), and jp is now one of many im friends who i talk to regularly because of, believe it or not, basketball. i still see sarah once in a while, and, well.. everyone else i am just peachy with (i think. haha)

as for my comm block, who/m(?) i love equally, i also see a lot of. mel is my fangirl buddy, and i went with her last friday to watch elliott yamin. evi and ane and sarah(pa rin), i get to spend time with rin(though ane is missing na since she has a job. lucky bitch). 

i miss my college friends! i really think that college was great for me. it opened up my world and it became such a big world for me after 4 years. sure a lot of things didn't go for me, but i believe in the feeling that it was all for the best. all my mistakes, and accomplishments, friends i've met, lost along the way, etc. i really feel that it's leading me somewhere, and im still excited to see where this gets me :)

so to 2004 luj, don't worry, we've got it covered :) for now :)

Saturday, September 22, 2007

today is my dad and my lola's birthdays :)

we will pig out on shantung, and i will find out if any of my other relatives remembered that i had a birthday too. (chos! hahahahahaha)

for now, i will watch las vegas and pig out on popcorn (loooove!!)

watched elliott yamin last night. :) more on that soon. when im more awake. or after i shower. whichever.


Friday, September 14, 2007


i really don't like applying for stuff, cuz i have this very strong fear of rejection, which is paralyzing most times. i guess the idea is if i don't apply, then i won't know how many people there are that don't want me. most of the time i do it anyway, but then sometimes something matters too much for me that i won't be able to bear it if i didn't get it, so i don't try at all.

it's hard to keep thinking that you're not good enough, but you keep trying through all the rejections anyway, in hopes that someone might see that you are, or like you despite of it.


maybe im just lonely. /:-| ah kebs. i just need a job. or correction, i need a PAYING job.


my mom and co. finally got POs (purchase orders) yesterday. we're ecstatic, dahil in fairness, those were a lot of orders. i wrung my eyes out yesterday looking at just numbers because we had to tally all the orders up so that they know more or less how many kilos of cloth to set aside. their new stocks come out second week of november so if you're curious, just trek on over to SM (megamall, makati or north edsa, where there are more stocks than at other branches) :)


i like the weather right now. so calm and breezy :) such sleepy weather but i don't mind, i so love sleepy weather :)

am excited for the fall season of tv shows :) yun lang. haha

Monday, September 10, 2007

this is what happened on my birthday

my guests
my cake
family love :)
what we did til 4 in the morning

and ok, it wasn't the most perfect party and i wish people came but who am i kidding? i have never successfully planned a party and the fact that it was my birthday does not make it an exception (not bitter. swear. haha). but much gratitude and love to all the people who remembered that it was my day to grow older, and to the people who tried to make it but couldn't. :) special rin naman cuz i've spent my whole life with these people and it really was anything but a quiet night at home, what with around 6 litres of gin pomelo between the 4 of us, and a hell of a lot of screaming (and eating). Shantung is loooove :D

got my hair cut pala! when it was done the guy who blow dried my hair asked me how many inches was cut off (he estimated mga 5 cuz, as he said: marami pong natanggal sa inyo ah! sabi ko: di ko na inalam. hahaha cuz it was too painful. i estimated a good 6 or 7 inches off.) goodbye longest hair i've ever had. i shall miss you. tama si nix, nakakaloka yung first shower, when you realize your hair is actually gone. hahaha

much love to tippi, achi denise and jones, who made me schlep over to greenhills to pick out my gift :) loved it suuuper, but i wish you had let me take it all, instead of making me choose, cuz that was an excruciating experience. mwahahahaha!!! kidding :)

no love for tita t, who made me stressed on my birthday. and forgot about it. kidding :D hahahaha

watched rin disturbia. scarier than 1408. ewan. hahaha shia lebeouf is H-O-T. mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

something is seriously wrong with my hormones.

i was talking to one of my cousins a couple of weeks back about why i didn't accept any of the jobs that were offered to me and i started bawling. he was going to hug me but i started to cry harder.

and today, my mom is feeling crappy so she wanted me to hug her. and now i feel all weepy.

hate you hormones.


my brain has disintegrated to the size of a pea. strike me dead now please.


in other news, sarah has been texting me regularly, replying to my texts with a frequency that is astounding. is Jesus coming now, then? hahahahaha

can't wait for friday! to the guys who're coming, apologies. i may be cooking your dessert for the evening. haha don't worry, il buy enough rum to drown the burnt flavor away. hahahaha

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Day Late Friend- Anberlin

i super love this song. :)

So let me get this straight
Say now you love me all along
What made you hesitate
To tell me in words what you really feel
I can see it in your eyes
You mean all of what you say
I remember so long ago
See, I felt the same way

Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
Insignificantly enough we both have significant others
Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were then
Could've been lovers
But at least your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
Who knew what we knew now
Could've been more
But atleast your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
My day late friend

But thoughts may change
And times they rearange
I don't know who you are anymore
But thoughts come and go
And this I know
I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess
You're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain this thought
Thoughts of us together

We are who we were then
Could've been lovers
But at least your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
Who knew what we knew now
Could've been more
But atleast your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
My day late friend

So let me get this straight
All these years and you were nowhere to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late and my love's just still renown

We are who we were then
Could've been lovers
But at least your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
Who knew what we knew now
Could've been more
But atleast your still my day late friend
We are who,
We are who we were then
My day late friend

Monday, September 3, 2007


i have a job interview tomorrow. 

Lord, i hope this is my last. if i get offered, i will SO TAKE IT NA. im so tired of being bored