i am old.
i now freely admit that. heck, i shall embrace the fact that at 23, i am considered old. decrepit, shall we say (i kid, of course). at parties, i am the one griping on and on about work and am the one being constantly asked about work.
heck, even tin's boyfriend thought i was the eldest based solely on the fact that by the last clumtards reunion/drink night, i was the only one with a job. (but hey achi denise now has a job too, which means she is older than i am. forever. mwahahaha)
this fact driven home on Sept21, where i lament at my lola and dad's birthday party about the fact that everyone has a sembreak, and i DO NOT. so while they are planning on where they will go for sembreak, i go and say: "so kids (!!!), lubus-lubusin nyo na ang mga bakasyon nyo dahil pag-nagtrabaho na kayo wala na yan lahat. ever."
this. line. came. from. me. from out of nowhere. and of course every college-aged person there laugh their asses off coz the line came from me, ms.-i-bummed-for-ten-months-coz-i-was-too-lazy-to-look-for-a-real-job.
i think i need to bum again. just so we have our priorities straight, which is luj>family>work. HAHAHAHAHAHA
i loooved hangin out with my college friends cuz the last time i hung out with any of them was about 6 or 5 months ago (i don't remember when sar and i hung out last but she maintains it was later than march so, ok) we got together cuz of the bonfire and it was pretty fun! i spend all this time at work with my officemates, and by now i'm sure the people who know me a tad better to call me friend rather than acquaintance would know that i have a tendency to "forget" old friends when moving into "new" worlds. anyway, so i spend all my time with them, and my whole world now is the office (and of course the people i can't "forget", my family) and wala lang it was so nice to catch up with all my old friends. i got to meet so many of the ones i've amassed over the years,and you know, nostalgia kicks in.
and i present to you, my friends, yet another reason why i am old. because when you are old, nostalgia kicks in. when you are young you do not lament over time passed. when you are old, you huddle up in a corner with friends and go: where has the time gone? when i saw you last (insert witty remark/lament/insult/compliment here). and then you go around telling people I MISS YOU GUYS! we should do this more often and hug everyone like you haven't seen them for ten years and they (or you) are about to die.
and yet there are still just some things that click, y'know? like the fact that after 1 1/2 years since college, everyone is different and yet still the same. the same old jokes revisited, the same old people to tsismis about... but with new material, of course. it's comforting to know i still have friends outside of work, even though Lord only knows why i have friends, period on account of i'm such a b-word.
okay, time for this old lady to check herself into bed. g'night now ;-)
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
i am old.
Posted by Jane Lu at 11:49 PM